Shawn, I think that's the root of your issues. I know you're not a scammer and it's easy to see how much you love trading here because it's a great way to be part of a friendly community of collectors. But you keep getting in over your head. Nobody can manage 30+ open trades. And it also sounds like you may be offering cards up for trade that you don't actually have in your possession if you have to be going to eBay to get them.
I think you're doing that because that'll lead to more trades you can make, but it's making things worse for you. When someone has way too many things going on, it's a common reaction to get overwhelmed, freeze up, and not address any of it. Here that means you're not fulfilling your trades and not responding to your frustrated trade partners, hence your feedback/reputation.
Do you understand that the people in this thread (and who've given you negative feedback) are mad because what you're doing is wrong? That you need to stop creating new accounts to escape that negative feedback? That everyone who trades with you or anyone else here loses the all-important trust necessary for trading online when you do that?
You need to stop claiming that your email's been hacked (and though I doubt that's really happening, just in case, look into enabling two-factor authentication for it--I'm willing to help you with that), stick to one account, make as many open transactions right as possible, and then once you've done that, if you get to two or three new transactions, STOP, finish those, and then proceed with more. Don't offer up any cards you're not sure you have handy. Don't overextend yourself to try to please others.
I'm willing to try to help you with any of that if I can. Do you need someone to work with to look over what you still have open and try to get those cards to the right people? Would it help to have someone to help remind you when you have too many deals going on? Do I have any cards in my FS/FT lists people are waiting on that I could send for you? I want to help, but it's important that you understand that nobody on this site should be allowed to have multiple accounts to escape feedback that they've earned. You should have one account and Jackie should have one and that feedback should be tied to what each of you does separately.
The good news is that you haven't been banned from trading and that there's still plenty of folks here who like trading with you, and that's great. It's important to you and I hope you can continue to do so, but it's time for you to take responsibility and stop opening new accounts, because it's clear Admin deleted Bowlingboss87, and I'm sure if you keep this up, that'll continue to happen.
Please reach out if I can help.